One thing at a time.

Since I seem to be in self-improvement mode, or just get real mode, I guess what I wish the most would be that it would be possible to tackle things one at a time, because my goals are conflicting. I'm still trying to have a good time in Colorado, and go out, but it diverts attention from work, doesn't do the budget well and on the net, at this point, I'm finding it more stress-inducing than fun (even if I think that it is a necessary discomfort if I'm going to grow as a person and be able to manage myself in an even more extroverted culture). Maybe I just need to train for a marathon, so that I'll be in such dopamine high most of the week I don't care. I'm also unable to rid myself of the notion of skydiving, that it would be so transcendant so as to be transformative. Magic thinking, but a new plank in my “ultimate to do” list is to do at least one thing crazy a year, and so far I don't think I've accomplished that yet this year. But I guess despite crazy goals, sometimes the most prosaic ones are actually the ones that lead to the most happiness.

Iyam, whateyeam. I guess I have to be true to my goal of being a wandering bum, and continue poco a poco to keep things in balance without focusing exclusively on financial preparations.